Your love...

...is like a hurricane,

I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of your wind and mercy...

***

A few days ago I felt so odd.

I felt, calm, beautiful, suicidal, pleasant.

I don't really know any better way to describe it.

Maybe I was feeling like the weather or something...

But I felt so tranquil, and that somewhere in the tranquility I felt... satisfied, and yet at the same time I wanted to end my life... or just drain the blood out of my veins.

It was... an odd feeling, that's for sure...

***

Last night was Adagio dancefest. It went very well.

And God, YOU WIN.

That you have blessed me with weakness,
Yet you have blessed me with talents,
That in my weaknesses,
You still use me.

I prayed a lot beforehand, I wanted God to be seen through the way I danced, choreographed or not.

It's your Grace God, I want it to overflow.

And so I began to think... as I went to sleep...

***

...that God's will, WILL BE DONE.

How can it not be? God's in control, hold me, holding us, and through we have free will,
That God loves us so much to give that to us,

His will, will be done.

Think about how God kept Pharaoh's heart hard, all throughout the time when Moses was trying to get the Israelites out of Egypt.

Your will was DONE. Your PROMISES were FULLFILLED.

So I think, God, I want to bend to your will.

Your will be done.

I want to be able to bend to your will.

Hrmmm....

***

I want to see your glory and grace in everything around me.

It's cool how you're opening my eyes to these things.

***

Woo. I wanna dance moar.