Im sitting in my infinity lecture right now.
It's hard to understand. I zone out most of the time or play a stupid game to waste time.

I had an odd day today.

I've been dreaming again, and I love it.
Really, lucid dreaming, dreaming.
I'm so happy God is giving this to me... (I'm just assuming that he is...)

And I hate saying this, but it's nice being able to get away from everything.
It's nice to just go to a place that doesn't exist and have an adventure.

Today was hard God. I woke up, and temptation was already at my door. I'm trying to fight... but I'm scared I'm just going to turn this into a process.

I haven't eaten since breakfast because I took a nap in between classes.

I dreamed then too.

I'm worrying about money.

About time.

About stretching myself too thin.

About my future.

But I offer all of it up to you... It's hard for me to trust in your promise...

But I offer all of it up to you... in the hope, and the very small faith and knowledge that your promises never do fail.

I hope you're doing something with me. With this crap life that wouldn't amount to anything unless, really, unless you were up there and in control.

Today was a weird day.

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I'd give up all of my desires for marriage, for a wife, for just having someone there to fill up this void, for a person who can understand (But would ANYONE be willing, or even be able to?) and take me, if I could just commune with you, to eat with you, to speak with you, to hear you, to just be intimate with you God.

God, I'd love to be a prophet.

I'd give that up to become one.

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It'd be nice to get married though, to be in a real relationship... to have someone who'd understand, who I can talk to... but more and more it seems like that's a fading hope...

But maybe, just maybe, praise you... because you're the only one I can talk to and confide in.

Ionno if that's biblical-y correct, or not... or even if this is what you want or what you're planning for me...

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This is small. Compared to your love God.

http://stuffchristianslike.net/2010/10/three-more-words/

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I haven't written here in what seems like a while.

Today was a weird day.