Just letting sin right back in.

I'm tired God.

I don't want to try right now...

I don't.

Last night when they attacked me as I put my head down to rest...

I couldn't move, as usual... I couldn't fight back.

All I could think to myself was, "In Jesus name."

Couldn't even think to actually pray. To actually cast them out in your name.

To fight them in your name.

And I'm hella lonely right now.

Hella, hella lonely.

Bitterness is taking me over again.

Sin is leaking in.

I have no urge to fight it.

But I spoke to momma today.

So I'm trying, right?

I want to go get healed.

So I'm trying, right?

...right?

Or am I just rolling around in my own shit-sinfullness...

I'm tired.

Sin is leaking in.