Maybe I should just take a nap...

Looking back over the last few months... I feel so different. I've been saying this so often lately. It seems like time just... doesn't even exist. What I just did a few hours ago seems like a distant memory.
Pastor Paul said something about that... that when we get closer to God, we start living "in his time" more and more. It feels like that... I can't place myself anymore.
Meh.

But I have been growing, and God has been working in me... teaching me. Fostering me. As much as I may or may not have liked it... Ha. I have been asking for it. But I never expect it to be painful... or as painful as it was.

But I guess that's love.

Living by myself for this past summer has been an amazing gift that my Mom gave to me. I'm so thankful for that.

Ah. In comparison. I'm still such a little boy. I'm such a bride. Christ puts us to shame. Really. Hahaha. But it's not about how bad we are... It's about how good God is.

Just this morning, well, not just this morning but for a while now, demons have been trying to get me down, over and over again.

So I'm doing something right.

Ah. Even in my sinfulness, my pride, my fears, my mistakes, my doubts... Redeem me.

...even in this terrible post. Redeem me.

Ugh.