How do you do it?

How are you so firm on the gospel that nothing seems to shake you?
That every temptation doesn't bother you?
That sin doesn't seem to pierce your armor?

How are you so dependent on God?
So faithful?
So in love?

How do you do it?

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I genuinely don't know.
Am I supposed to fall more in love?
Or is it a realization? A strike of inspiration?
Do I need to discipline myself more?
Or do I do nothing at all?

Ugh.