"i want to remember what it was like to just be like... hi. i'm ----. lets play. or something like that"

It seems like occasionally the line between God and the Devil blurs to me.

It also seems like I'm very awkward, (have been and getting more so...) and getting better at destroying interpersonal relationships.

Don't ruin dancing for me.
I wont let you.
I will work harder.

I... do not feel okay.

Haha. I am stubborn. Probably going to end up in hell.

Pretty bitter too.

Happy Fathers Day. If you say so.

I need you to tell me something. Anything.

*want.

Haha am I not going to have anything? HAHA. Or am I just being greedy now?

Flowing through my veins. Dirty. Deprave.

There's nothing I can bring or offer to you... So why? What can you redeem in me that would bring you glory?

Why? Are you still with me?

Aren't you just sick of me yet?

Tell me something. Anything.

Or am I too stubborn to even open my ears?

Probably.

I feel restless... unsettled...

I think this might be the start of a new chapter in my life...

Let's look forward.

Cost... It will cost me fitting in, and family. But I will gain, everything. In the end.

It will cost me my pride... probably, as well as my logic too.

But I will gain, everything that I put in. In the end.

I hope these things don't have a hold on me anymore.

That the only thing that will have a hold on me, is a person nailed to a cross.

We'll see how things go.

It'll probably hurt a lot.

You can't judge me. You do not decide whether I am a good person or not.

Only God.

I'm done.

This is a new chapter.