LOL PITY ME. DO IT.

HA. Even this, is for pity.

I'm doubting everything about myself (<-for pity)

In doubting myself, I'm somewhat seeing all of my bad qualities (<- for pity)

That I'm... in actually a shit, spoiled, selfish person. That most of the things I do are because I want to be perfect/a nice guy. I don't think that there's anything that I do out of good reason. So... as much as I may be nice, I am bad. As much as I think I care, I probably don't. As much as I want to be perfect, I am imperfect.

I am. Not.

Everything I thought was good. Is bad.

Everything I loved about myself, I hate about myself.

And this, is all for pity. Because I'm spoiled. Because I want people to love me, to care about me.

I am a shit person.

I'll be honest and say... that I'm not entirely sure if I'm doing anything for the right reason. Whatever that may be.

Ha.

Whatever.

Would acting to not get pity... be for pity? It seems that way.
Would not acting at all... be for pity? Probably.

I don't know anything.

I am. Not.

Sigh.

What can I say, I am deprave by nature...

The gospel is all twisted in my head...

S'all twisted.