Even though...

...I say I'm gonna switch to Tumblr... I'm probably not.
There's something much more intimate about... this.
Hohoho...
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It's probably just the music I've been listening to...
But I've been feeling so mellowed out for the last few days.
The only person I'm really close to who I'm around right now, is my Mom.
I have like... two friends down here =P
And most of my day is either at my mom's shop or on the computer back at the apt ><
And I'm not gonna lie...

...I kinda like it.
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It feels like... I'm somewhere... further away.
Hahaha... In some sort of distant world...
And it's not like I'm out of touch with people...
But I definitely feel... alone.
Not lonely... but alone.
And it feels... interesting.
It feels okay.
I wanna see what God does with this =P
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Today...
2 Kings 17:38-39.
I wanna stay on track.
Focused.
It's hard... I'm so human yaknow?
I need more of God. 24/7.
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I've been talking to someone every night since I got here...
It's been... nice. Without a doubt.
But I'm scared >< HAHAHAHA damn...
Who would've thought...
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Blink-182; Stockholm Syndrome, All of This, Stay Together for the Kids
Flyleaf; Treasure, Who Am I
Citizen Cope; Sideways (feat. Carlos Santana)
The Cinematic Orchestra; To Build a Home
David Crowder Band; *How He Loves* (Chea.)
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I've also been thinking about... my relationships in the past.
And it just seems like, there is going to be a bit of my heart that's always gonna stay with them...

Well.
Maybe.

But right now it just seems like, even though I may not "feel" for them anymore, they're always gonna be those people that I let in... yaknow?
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Ho ho ho... I definitely want God to take the wheel and drive...
Take OVA my life...