I can't...

...really sleep right now.
There are a few things running through my head.
A bunch of people are on my mind.
a)A Missionary
b)Two Sisters
c)A Brother
d)A Girl
e)A Mother and her two kids
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So there's a new art portal on newgrounds.
And they have thumbnails on the frontpage.
And there's this picture that someone drew, and I've only seen the thumbnail.
But I feel like it's taunting me >=[
There's a girl, seems to be lying on a bed... (Clothes on mind you.)
But... the expression and the position seems so... happy. So... relaxed, and comfortable.
I don't want to see the whole image, and yet I do...
I'm choosing not to...
But it seems so... Happy.
The situation, or at least the one I've made in my mind about this...
Seems so... loving. Not a really twisted love... or lust or sex...
But almost like... "Good morning... I'm still here. I'm happy to see you. Let's spend the day together"
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I don't really know... I'm just ranting at this point.
But... that... feeling that I get when thinking about that... is nice.
Hrm...
I definitely would like that... no lying there...
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Where are you taking me God? =]
It'd be cool to know... but then there would be no fun... no growth in it.
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I took a nap today...
The thoughts that ran through my head... drove me a little crazy ><
When I woke up... it felt like I had been fighting...
Hrm...
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I wanna hold fast to you God.
I want to be obedient and pleasing.
Stick to my Guns... stick to You.
I need j00 God.
I wouldn't be alive without you.
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Is this path that I have chosen a lonely one?
Regardless... I know there is a reason for me feeling this way.
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Totally feel that holy spirit workin in me...
It's gonna happen.