100 Days....

...was yesterday for me and Tina =]. So I woke up about 20 minutes ago (What I'm already on the computer?) and I'm heading off to "work" soon where I will sift through hundreds of LPs trying to find some that might be able to get me some money. I'm saving up for:
A) Rent
B) Bass Cab (I got/have a MarkBass LMII)
C) Wireless Instrument system (If anyone's seen me play....)

But all of this, is moneyyyyy.
And it's kind of invigorating. I have a job now, I'm working at a hakwon (Korean afterschool/SAT Classes kinda thing). But until the summer session starts, I will be trying to make money by selling LPs. But here's the thing, yesterday Tina and I wanted to get couple rings, yeah, how lame. Hahaha. But it seemed nice, and I wanted to.

We didn't end up getting any rings. The one's that were inexpensive enough just wasn't what we were looking for, and the one's that looked nice were out of my price range. It was... jarring I guess, and a little depressing that we couldn't get the rings.

Moneymoneymoney. I gotta pay rent for the room that no one's living in... Sigh.

Everything is money. Which clearly isn't true. But it seems like it right now, for the last week or so. I really don't know what's gonna happen once I'm on my own...

That and the summer retreat is getting me slightly frustrated.

Ugh. Depressing.

We did have a really great day though, we ended up sitting down in a park and talking about a lot of stuff (mainly me venting...) and then eating dinner (Ruby Tuesday's in NYC is really really nice O.o) and ultimately me heading back home. We also saw UP, which was SUCH A GOOD MOVIE. Yeah....

A couple things I realized yesterday...

1. The reason why I like drinking/spending time with friends/playing video games, and yes, even praising, is that it stops me from thinking. My mind is on something else. Whether it's planting the bomb or screaming Gods glory, it puts the focus of my mind on something else, it doesn't let it wander. Reading this over, it sounds almost naive to say this, but that matters so much to me, just getting my mind to STOP thinking for a little. It seems odd, because maybe you could just relate this to drugs or something. What I'm trying to say is that it may be seen as an escape, a way to get away from everything. I don't necessarily think that's the case... It's more like, shifting the focus of what my mind is on. When that focus isn't "shifted," it allows my mind to wander, and that's what gives me my moments.
Yeah...

Did I realize anything else yesterday...?

Yeah, I'm not gonna share this one though. (My mind is now beginning to wander...)

I made some CDs for Tina, hope she likes them...

Mmmm. I think I gotta get going to work. Peace.