I didn't have...

...a really good nap =P

It was only for twenty minutes but it felt like an hour or so...
I had a dream. It wasn't very long. And I didn't like it very much.

It's interesting to think about the life that I once led,
And the frustration that comes from wanting that, and what I have now.

But more and more I feel as if my past life is sinking away.
And my new life is taking over, filling me up.

Ah.

Frustrated...

I think I need a teddybear.

What a waste of a post...

***

I know that the verses that have been speaking to me recently have been about,
facing temptation,
and perseverance.

I just feel myself in a battle every day.

And it's tiring.

It'd be easy to not deal with it.
But right now, it's hard to go back to it.
It's hard to go back to my past life,
I don't know what's left for me there.

Or anywhere for that matter.

Once I've seen and felt your Grace, it's hard to want to go back.

And I know you know, but I've kinda been wanting to go back.

***

It's like... I'm in... purgatory? Hahahaha.

***

I'll be delivered.

I remember trying to understand quotes from Fight Club,
and one that always stuck out to me was

"I'll bring us through this. As always, I'll carry you- kicking and screaming - and in the end you'll thank me."

I don't really see myself as kicking and screaming against God carrying me,

But I'm still attached to the past.

I just want to be uprooted.
And placed near new streams of water.

...but it's never that easy, is it?

Na. Everything'll be fine.

***

Yeah. 1 Peter 7-9.

I should be doing work.

Definitely not in the mood to.