The line between...

...the sinful desires and Godly desires keeps getting thinner and thinner, the closer and closer I draw to him.
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I feel as if... as I learn more, the stuff gets harder. Does this make sense?
I realize how much more deprave I am. How much I desire things. Both Good and Bad.
I realize more about the cost paid for me.
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The more and more I learn about myself, about God...
The more and more I realize that I not only need him, but that I feel like I could fall towards either direction. And all it takes is a small breeze.
God, please breathe on me, come like a rushing wind.
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My house was definitely not this loud last semester... why can't I fall asleep now...? =[